Saturday, December 26, 2015

So, this is Christmas....

The topic of my post today says a lot to me. So, this is Christmas. That's what I was thinking when the day came and left. Family, presents, food! Oh the food. But then at the end of the day, I still said - So, this is Christmas.

 Maybe some of you - (from my generation) can remember John Lennon's song, about the war and other things happening at that time, called So This Is Christmas? That is my focus for this morning. I'm so blessed to have family and friends (yup, that includes you too!) To be able to say I feel so great at this time of the year, but then my heart sinks into my chest and I say "So, this is Christmas and what have you done? Another year older.... and I'm like did I just waste another year? There are so many things that I want to be able to do or accomplish within a year and for some reason, these last few years, I've been getting to December and thinking, what have I done this year?

 So, should I do a review?  What have I done?  Well, what I have I done that made a difference?  I want to say that what I did at my job made a difference, but sometimes I'm not so sure because I'm so far from the source, ya know?  And my lovely daughters are far from me, in North Carolina, and Virginia, that I really am not able to influence them very much anymore.  Besides, they are getting older and don't need "mommy" like they used to.  But the older they get, the more I see ME in them! So that is such a great feeling!  LOL.  They may not like it very much though!

I have made a ton of cards, not many scrapbook pages, but that's going to change.  I'll be doing that real soon too.  So, back to the subject at hand....So, this is Christmas.

Usually on Christmas day, and Christmas eve for that matter, I'm in the house.  Cooking and cleaning and making my home as nostalgic as possible.  I love that about the holiday season. But on Christmas day and eve, I'm doing my last minute cleaning and getting ready for family to come and visit and making food and the house smells wonderful.  But this year, not so much.

I went to my son's house for Christmas this year and actually left my home.  We stopped at Walgreens and the parking lot was full and people were coming in and out - there wasn't a lot of "Merry Christmas!" greetings and smiles were not on the little one's faces, being dragged about - up and down the aisles.  I said to myself - So, this is Christmas? People at the movie theater, eating at Chili's and Fridays? I feel like I've been living a "sheltered" life for so long.  This is what the rest of the world is doing on Christmas Day.

I literally thought that the world stopped on Christmas Day!  What the?  So, why do I feel so bad? Why did I feel like there was nothing nostalgic about my CHRISTMAS DAY? Well, there wasn't.  I was around some folks I didn't know in a home that didn't smell like mine, and I just wasn't comfortable.  I think I'm getting into scrooge mode in my old age.  Not sure!

Anyway, cause I can kinda see this post getting really long, let's wrap this up - So, this is Christmas and what have I done? I'm another year older and a new year is about to begin.  The only thing I can think of is that I want next year to be better.  Actually, I want to start before the new year and make this NEXT year better.  One day, the Lord is going to call me home to be with Him and I want to be able to say that I've lived my life to the fullest.  Not just existing, but living.  Living a blessed life.
 Here is a line from another song that has just touched my heart this Christmas, that isn't even a Christmas song that I want to share, because in my realization that-Yes, this is Christmas and Yes, I'm another year older, I've done a lot, been through a lot, but I also have so much more to give!  Enjoy this song & Merry Christmas: song by Lee Ann Womack.

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin' chances but they're worth takin',
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth makin',
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter,
When you come close to sellin' out - reconsider,
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance.

Thanks for reading...


2 comments:

  1. Dear Raquelle,

    Just want you to know that one thing you have done this year is to make me smile and gain inspiration when I view your blog.
    Happy new year!!! Marty

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  2. Thanks Marty, you are an inspiration to me too! Thanks for your sweet comment and also for being a follower! Happy New Year to you and your family as well!

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